How many of you, had sent me a text message pointing out to me that i've been happier recently?
to that, i didn't give any reply or would choose to divert our conversation.
What gives you such an impression, my blog?
i've come to realised that it is very true that with hopes comes disappointments. that is, only if Hope does not equate to the outcome but with acceptance, only then would you not get disappointments.
but, i haven't learnt to hope with acceptance yet.
I believe that i've tried my best, i had done what i should do and what i NEED not do.
i see improvements in myself, but sadly, to only be taken advantage of and have more shits thrown my way.
i'm very sure, that my presence is still inexistent.
It's not that i chose to be cold, but ask yourself what had you done.
Love isn't as easy as "i love you, you love me, i wanna be your lady, you're gonna be my man"
neither is it "i don't love you, you don't love me, so please fuck off and hopefully you get knocked down by a truck soon"
I think i've been kind enough.
because towards her "i know you don't love your girlfriend" i didn't insist you do something to prove to her that you love me. although it seems like as easy as displaying my picture on your Friendster means you love me, that's very childish.
because towards her pictures, i said please respect my existence and put them away, away from my sight. which you chose to ignore time and again, only to led to further arguments.
because upon knowing the truth from a third party, and with your confirmation that you did say that you still couldn't get over her, i said that i never wanna or intended to take over that girl's place in your heart.
because knowing that her birthday is coming soon, i had told myself to be prepared and also reminded myself to keep my bloody shut (which failed, can't blame that i'm sarcastic)
because i knew that you don't have money but i still offered to give you some so that you can get her a birthday gift, even though it is HER.
They say, if your boyfriend had chosen you over her, then don't compare nor bring her up.
but it's more like he's forcing himself to face the fact that his Ms. Wonderful isn't gonna return to him anymore, so please move on.
After countless of new relationships and break ups, 3 years after that one particular break up, rejection for a patch up less than a year ago... we got to know each other and started dating. only to come to know that my this guy is still deciding on whether or not he just feels guilty or he really loves that girl he'd dumped 3 years ago.
Can you get anymore indecisive than this
continue being insensitive, selfish and bad tempered. continue to be a NATO-ian. continue to give no assurance and be the first to snap at me if anything about her is being brought up again.
4 months into this relationship... so what, it still doesn't mean a thing.
if being in this relationship brings more pain and troubles and unhappiness than being alone, then why be together.
And i mean it when i say he can go to her birthday celebration tonight without me flaring up... i am the one who said he can go ahead without me, so i have no complains.
yeah, my boyfriend is that insensitive to actually ask me along to her birthday party.
i see no point in going all the way down to Chevrons at Jurong, i might not even enjoy myself. then return home late and not having enough rest for work tomorrow.
What's more, i have no interest to be at the scene where my boyfriend finally gets to see the girl he's been raving about.
We go on a date like once in 2 weeks cos of his work.
aiyar, people's bird-day you know! cannot blame one, must go... how far also must go.
he everyday return home we macam dating liao what. no privacy cos we're sharing room with his younger brother, but so what?! sharing the same bed even sweeter leh!
*rolls eye
That's the thing about staying with your boyfriend, he makes no effort to create "sparks", pamper or surprise you. they just get lazier and lazier...
If this relationship works out, it worked. if it didn't, then get over it.
Like what Ran said, Women can easily get a new man when they're back in the market, single and available again...
but, how many of these Men are sincere and serious about starting a relationship with you or do they just want a piece of you.
男人永远只知道女人的底裤在哪，却不知道女人的底线在哪。
I bumped into Ping last night. then 2 other ex Macphersonians join a little while later, one of which is Ping's boyfriend, RYAN!
okay, he is not Ryan... i'm so bad at remembering guy's names.
So anyway, it's really sweet of them to wanna celebrate my birthday with me this year.
friends for so many years, first time leh!
i'm really touched when they told me about their suggestion.
Are you guys celebrating my birthday with me out of sympathy?!
ahem... that's just a feeling i got cos so much had happened to me recently.
Still, much appreciated my lovelies!
it's the thought that counts. (but that doesn't mean that all you have to do is think about it and no actions)
Hmm... i still managed to end this post happily.
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