i lost my job. road ahead would be tough, but i know Mum will be understanding enough not to pressure me about it.
i repeated the same mistakes, i myself can't believe i'm back where i started from, now i've to start from scratch again. is this a vicious cycle i'm never gonna break?
I don't know what's with me today, just felt like having a good cry. i could see sadness and worry in Dad's eyes, but i guess he too understands that i just don't wish to talk about it right now.
he held me in his arms and wiped my tears away, which made me broke down even more...
Just yesterday when i was talking to Mum, it struck me that it's been a long time since we've last done something together, let's say a simple dinner... and we've never been on a trip together, the furthest country we've travelled to together was M'sia, before Regina came. i'm guilty that i can't even afford to let my parents take some time off work and go have fun.
Every single shit that happened recently has really taken a toll on me. i need to go out and have fun more often, need to be happy. need to...
No comments:
Post a Comment