Money Woes!

I'm supposed to get a new pair of shoes for work.
but i refuse to cos i don't think of it as a long term investment at all when i'm paid so little.
but the pain is killing me and it's not doing my flat feet any good.
=(

Doctor appointment at 9am, i so don't wanna part with that kind of money.
i can't back out on the vaccines now and i'm starting to reconsider taking the tests. sighs.
=((

Right now i'm being forced to decide whether or not to continue this job i've recently taken up. whether or not to study part-time instead. whether or not i should open my mouth to ask for help.
=(((

I know of people who aren't even working and is surviving.
i know of people who earns even lesser than i do but still survived.
so why can't i? why do i freak out whenever i have job and financial insecurities. why do i have to be such a worrywart. why do i have to make a mountain out of a molehill?!
=((((

I was lying in bed wallowing in self pity when i realized the saddest thing is that, there's no one to turn to because everyone's too busy with their own life.
sighs.
=(((((