I gave myself so many reasons to why we're still having a cold war. from him not having my new number to msn dying on him coincidentally when i tried to talk to him to maybe silly me had left him the wrong number etc. the last on my list of possibilities is the possibility that he never wants to talk to me again. so i thought maybe i should email him, but later chickened out. i think if he wants to talk to me, he would...
A "cooling off" period obviously doesn't always work. i understand that if one day we ever talk again, things might not be the same again.
On my part i do admit that i was wrong. although deep down i feel that it was more of a disagreement caused by different points of view, i told myself that if i had to be the one to take full responsibility and be the one at fault, then be it. yet i was refused of a second chance.
It wasn't easy finding a friend like him. cos half the time, most of the guys around me are either putting me off with their child-like behaviors or trying to get lucky with me or we just didn't get along at all.
but he was different. throughout our friendship, he was by my side whenever i meet with setbacks. we can not talk for months and when he hears from me, it'll be when i screw things up. and most importantly, he'd never tried to be funny with me. although he had expressed interest, most of the time he takes on the big brother figure in my life.
Since after so long he's still refusing to talk to me, then obviously he still can't get over what has happened. what's the point. after all, friendship is a two-way street.
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