i teared all the papers without complains.
the stack of papers were enough to fill up one box of A4 size papers.
more than enough for her to use for half a year.
the next time she's pissed, she'll have to find "something" else more tormenting for me to do.
And you know what, i'm proud of myself!
=)
That day right after i was very pissed and lost at what to do, i read one of the books Ted gave me, titled: "How to overcome your difficulties".
it did help to calm me down quite a bit. although later in the night, i was still a little disturbed and started whining to my boyfriend.
While tearing those papers, i asked myself a lot of questions and i thought about a lot of stuffs.
does keeping quiet makes on weak?
No. it definitely does not makes one weak.
That's just life, we don't always get things done our way.
i tears all those papers in like an hours time, my shoulders were aching but i did not stop.
then i told myself, this is to mould myself to be a better person, a stronger person.
i remember clearly that she'd once complained about tearing these papers cos of the shoulder aches. which is even more obvious why she'd chosen to do what she did...
I never thought of revenge, cos i read and learnt... that through revengeful acts, you'll only make more enemies and it's very childish and a very wrong thing to do.
if this girl was really (obviously was) out to get me, then i believe, one day she'll get the taste of her own medicine.
Even if what she'd done to me were to happen to her one day, but not in front of me and without me knowing...
but still, she'll come to realise how it feels to be treated that way.
i need not do anything to cause her the amount of misery she caused me, but to only believe that one day, she'll get her fair share of retribution for her actions.
She might be able to survive in this small scale company but when she gets into a bigger company, will she be able to cope if she resorts to such tactics?
i think no, because i'm sure there are people out there who are much more cunning than this.
It's not like i'm gonna stay to this company for long.
i'm gonna leave the moment i know i'm able to get into the HR department at some other bigger companies.
she's been trying so, so hard to secure her place not only because she's a Malaysian.
also because her English sucks and it hasn't been improving even though she's been staying in Singapore for 2 years already.
she's well aware that she's unable to survive in bigger companies, which i guess... causes her insecurities thus behaving in such childish manners.
About her language, serves her right.
she's always laughing at another colleague's Catonese to me.
you expect others to teach you when you're wrong and not laugh at you, but what are you doing behind people's back?
She's been pretty mean to other co workers, be it railing at them as and when she's not in the right mood etc.
5 bosses may be too blind to see it cos they can't afford to lose a good worker, but the one above us all would definitely be able to see what she's doing.
Anyway, this explains why i'd rather have small chats online than talk to these people.
waste of time, really.
we all just don't get along and i don't see a need for me to put on a fake smile.
whether or not she likes it, that's her problem since my in charge and bosses have no problem at all with me being too quiet.
One of the many conversations my Boyfriend and i had was regarding Monday's lunch.
he told me that if his colleague were to do all these to him, he'll make damn sure he returns the favour two times or even more than what that colleague had done to him.
BUT, i'm not doing that, and i've never thought of doing that.
because i'm gonna buy lunch as usual, the way i always do... everyone gets the same dishes, same amount, nothing more or less.
then she'll know how childish she was to do what she'd did.
Hancock movie at Cineleisure with Boyfriend last night.
the show is pretty okay... there wasn't much selections so we just settled for this one.
Before that, we had late dinner at the late night stalls opposite Orchard Plaza.
it's becoming a habit to have Sambal Barbeque Stingray at least once a week. family favourite apparently, everyone likes it.
This is the second movie we watched together after being together for more than a month.
not forgetting, the 3rd or 4th time we're out all on our own, without a third party around.
sounds really pathetic eh. it's okay, since we're already living together.
Me want Macdonald's breakfast!!!
Been watching 野蛮奶奶大战戈师奶 for the past few days, am on episode 4 right now.
i think Part I is a lot better than this.
Still trying to get A Clockwork Orange by Stanley Kubrick!
anyone wants to help me get it then send it to me?
=D
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