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Guess you never heard of the story "The boy who cried wolf"?
it doesn't matter what you wanna say on your blog, i know best what i'm doing and thinking.
"i saved the conversation we had on MSN" blahblahblah... why try so hard, what are you trying to prove? you know who's the one who brought those debts up la. were you the one who went "Oh, and about the 200 i owe you" or am i the one who "eh, you still owe me fucking 200"

And i never knew that my blog portrays me as a MATURE and INNOCENT 18 year old.
funny how someone as crude as i am can also be innocent at the same time? you see vulgarities filled posts and you can say that i'm trying to act mature and innocent?

At this point of time, i don't need anyone to stand by my side. be it family friends, relatives or anyone else who knows me and my sisters.
BECAUSE IN YOUR EYES, I'M ALREADY FUCKING CONDEMNED.

I also don't need people to come up to me and tell me what to do. TYVM. those who tried to do so should know who they are. to those who did that, don't expect me to help people who don't even help themselves... common sense. i'm not running a charity organisation here.

And when i said you flared up, IT WAS NOT IN MSN. but in front of your gf... when you were sitting in front of the mirror in our room. when i said my person in charge had told me that personal loans between friends and relatives always goes unreturned. your gf nodded and agreed, you turned around and chided me immediately. how the hell you have proof for this, i don't know.

All i wanted to know is whether or not Ma let the pawn ticket go. if you have money, would you be so stupid to pay for a pawn ticket instead of utility bills... and i also don't like how you brought me up when you're having an argument with Jean when it has got nothing to do with me at all. i already kept a distant and you can still have things to comment about me...

I never for once listed out all the things i've done before only cos there's too many people reading... when Ma borrowed from Alex, i had never blamed her even though it caused us to argue a lot. in fact like what Jean said... he could have just rejected instead of feeling obligated to help. how many times had he disgraced me, for no reasons... by saying "then you leh?! your parents go around borrowing money." if not bringing up the amount Ma borrowed, as and when he liked. we weren't arguing over my parents of his, but simple things like commenting about his laziness and never offering to help when i'm busy can cause him to bring the money up. when i had my first job at a fruit stall, we argued over money issues way too often. the first thing i'd do whenever i get my pay would be to return him the amount Ma borrowed, it's not just once or twice.
She knows my account password and takes money from there too. when i couldn't take it, i told her i'd prefer she at least let me know about it first. if it's within my limit to give, when did i reject her before. and when you stop bringing her to the grocery store, i took over the job and tried my best to get household necessities every end of the month. rice, oil in your food and also santiary pads you used...
What about the dowry money that was meant to be returned? none of you knows how indebted i am over that 2.8k that vanished over the night. no one returned him that amount either. but when Dad had to come up with 2k, i too put down my pride and dignity to borrow from him only to get an immediate rejection. someone suggested borrowing from loan sharks, but i didn't think it was a wise thing to do... taking a look at Henry's incident just proves that borrowing from friends / relatives / loan sharks should be made the last option.

Now, after working for more than 2 years... i finally could put away a mere $500+ for my studies. after wasting so much on my hair and a fucking PSP slim and so many what nots, i finally managed to put away that little bit of money for studies.
Mind you, my boyfriend didn't help me financially.



All these aside... boyfriend bought me Sims2 package last night. really appreciate it. since my PSP slim died and i haven't gotten over it after so long. plus, his younger brother refuses to acknowledge my existence and repeatedly deletes away WTF game in bf's PSP.
now i have something else to pass time with although it really isn't the right time since i have papers to sit for 2 weeks from now.

And he is si bei childish cos he wants to get couple ring.
i think he got this idea partly to prove to me something, but i'm gonna act like i don't know.