There's more to these

I woke up from my nap that evening, wondering where i am even though i've been waking up to the sight of these same four walls for the past one week. i assured myself, then proceeded to check my phone like what i'll always do the first thing after i wake up... i teared as i read through your messages, i've never felt a love so strong in such a long time.
We've both went through so much together...



Relationship arguments / disagreements are no big deal. after you've went through way too much of those, it feels more like a routine.

It's might not be a change for the better, but a refreshing change maybe?
maybe...
it's not that i'm always having silly thoughts in my head... but ever thought that something, a source, sparked off all these thoughts, insecurities and questions?



แตงโม:
ฉันก็รู้ตัว ว่าฉันมันต้อยต่ำ เพิ่งรู้ว่าคนอย่างฉัน มันไร้ค่าขนาดไหน
รู้ดีทุกอย่าง ว่าเธอมีเจ้าของ แค่อยากให้เธอเข้าใจ อยากรั้งเอาไว้ให้ได้ ช่วยไขปัญหาคาใจ ที่ทนเก็บไว้มานาน



Why of all people, did i choose to call You?
it's not surprising why he'd asked me that.
he's not the most trusted nor closest or bestest friend of mine... but still, i chose him.
cos he had went through something similar, cos he's at least 8 years my senior, cos... i can't think of anyone who can give me a better / wiser advise.

Other than constantly reminding me i'd grow to be an amazingly beautiful lady, he's been there to give me the best advises to help me through, listing out to me the different options available.
it's only when such things happen, would you have a clear look at who are the genuine people around you.



Ever since the day i was told that Dearest's interview was a success and that she'll be taking over my work on the 1st of July... Boyfriend and i had quite a bit of plans for our weekends.
E.g. bring his Granny and Mum out for dinner. Get a new phone number for his younger brother and at the same time, one for myself. get my psp fixed. more movie dates...

Thing is, there's a sudden change in plans and i'm sure Boyfriend's gonna be very disappointed.
Dearest has decided that she'll be a stay home Mom, full time.
since she had rejected my offer, then i'm gonna consider whether or not i wanna continue juggling between 2 jobs, and i definitely need that now that i've moved out.